Death of My Grandmother Dream

 Date of Dream: Unknown

Dream from my archives

(This one is a very hard one to write because my grandma died in a terrible way a few years ago. The dream I had took place not too long after she passed.)

This dream had me in this very dark realm. The evilness from is was emanting nothing but depression and sadness. The sky was almost black but with a dark red tinge to it. I was walking outside by these dilapidated cars nearby by and I seriously couldn't see any one at all. Not a single person in sight. The surrounds resembles very much like the Upside Down from Stranger Things. That is, until I saw her.

My grandmother. I think I asked her why she was here and she said  "I killed myself and now I am in Hell. It's so terrible here. Just so many bodies."

The sadness in her voice was just too depressing beyond words. I honestly couldn't recall much further on our conversation. However, it was very brief. She said she doesn't have much time left to talk to me and she had to go.

I begged her not to leave me. I begged her not to go. I really did not want her to leave and I definitely want to tell her how much I love her. But before I knew it, a split seconds time, her face and whole body did a weird morph. I felt her presence no longer in front of me but there was still clearly a body in front of me. A woman but it was as if there was a body switch of some sort. The woman who was before me was a complete stranger and looked at me with the same level of confused as I.

I just remember being so sad. Sad she claimed she is in Hell and sad I never got to say how much I love and miss her. 

Dream Ended.

This dream has always puzzled me through the years. First off, the fact she claimed she killed herself. The way she died was in an accident as a result from someone else. A case that was documented and taken to court. Not by suicide at all. I do wonder what she meant by that or if that there was something more to her death. I was still mourning her death and a lot of that stemmed from guilt that I didn't visit or call her much at all years leading up to it. So much guilt. I always took for granted that she was always going to be there but I realized that way too late. A lot of that guilt was I remember my mom telling me to call grandma to tell her happy birthday just a few weeks before but I was too scatterbrained I ended up never doing it. Why the fuck didn't I just call my grandmother? I beat myself up everyday thinking about how selfish I was and how terrible of granddaughter I was to her. I hope she knows she gave me a lot of happy memories as a child. I was too depressed to want to do much of anything and I could I could have just mustered up the energy to call just wish her a hapy birthday that day. That could have been the last good interaction but I was too depressed to do anything about it. I'm so sorry.

Confuzzled Corpse Dream

Date of dream: unknown

Dream from my archives

Okay so I was looking out of my window looking on the streets. It was so gloomy and shady skies because of the rain and everything. The street closest to me lied a decaying grey-like corpse wrapped in a plastic bag with both it's legs amputated. At first, was nothing. Just eerie silence as the rain pounded on the bag as cars passing by (but not running the corpse dead flat) so like a cheap horror movie, the eyes of the corpse fling open and slowly trying to sit up. Quickly grew legs and stood up as cars were coming the opposite direction he eyes were pointed. After he stood up, he began moving fast paced and jumping on cars making weird walking movements. Police went on the scene in a matter of seconds trying to catch this unknown evil but he was too fast paced for the growing number of police chasing after him. It quickly became sunlight and he approached a group of campers in a mountain range (as changing from a city to the country location in a snap is so common in dreams) One woman that I played in my dream and I could see through her eyes, saw this corpse. Freaked out, I run up and up the mountains and stupid 'ol brains make a leap down below. I'm looking as I'm falling down to a swamp-like ground but I knew some of the swamp had some rock covered in vines so there was a possiblility I could have leaped to my death. Alas, I fell into water.

Then I woke up.