Date of Dream: December 28,2022
YO FOR ONCE THIS IS A RECENT DREAM! I THINKING RESUMING THIS DREAM JOURNAL IS ACTIVELY HELPING ME REMEMBER MY DREAMS MORE AND MORE!
I was standing in this wedding reception with a bunch of beautiful ladies in dresses around me that was eventually forming a line. I was purposely meant to stand to the side away from them. Why? Because I was the bride to be! I was wearing a beautiful wedding dress and I remember feeling so much love for the person I was going to marry. He never appeared in my dream but it was like an automatic memory. The man I was about to marry was a man I barely knew IRL but haven't seen or spoken to in over 4 years from today. He is such a stranger to me IRL but I remember just feeling so in love with him and how esthatic I was that I was going to marry him. His name is Rick and he was like 10 year older than me.
The next moment I remember I was standing at the window of a very tall (yet unknown number of stories) building. I saw my 15 year old nephew, Richard, but in the body of his 8 year old self stand literally outside on the roof of an adjacent outside window. He had a big black fish that was attached to his right arm but from my point of view it was on the left side of my vision. He had the biggest smile on his face and was waving frantically. I was so happy to see him and in that instance I remember feeling so happy he was happy to see and wave at me (IRL we aren't that close anymore and he ignores me nowadays). But the black fish that was attached to his arm looked weightless. He almost covered his entire arm and he was also waving that fish arm effortlessly contrary to how elongated and wide the fish was. I was not under the impression the fish was alive as I did not see see the fish move at all unless Richard waved his arm.
In a split second Richard was in the room with me also staring out the window. I don't recall seeing the black fish anymore. However, what I saw next changed my fucking life.
My 14 year old nephew, Alex, that is also in a younger version of himself. I would describe around 7-9 years old. He was OUTSIDE the window and just looking away from me. All I see is his back and side profile. It was a small ledge and he wasn't moving. In order to avoid causing a panic I tried to calming beckon him to step back inside the room. Weird thing though, I kept calling him Chris (my ex husband and father to my son). "Chris, please step inside the room like right now." I repeated this sentence three times.
Without warning, he slowly just stepped OFF THE LEDGE and fell to his death. In shock I looked away but I looked at Richard who screamed his head off and had the most grueling saddest and most horrified expression on his face. He cried instantly. I started bawling instantly and I didn't want to believe it. I kept asking "Did he really fall?!?" I was in denial I so did NOT want to believe that I saw my own nephew fall to his death.
I quickly closed the window and tried to immediately call 911. I flat out refused to look outside the window for fear of what I might see.
END OF DREAM
I woke up. I have a Fitbit and my heart was RACING however my heart rate said I was at 82 BPM.